I told you

now I have you

My Friend

I can hear you when you whisper sweet lies.I can see you through your vicious disguise.(pre)“Hey”Don’t you know I’m talking to you.“Hey”You speak of me behind my back.“Hey”What do you think your doing?You can’t treat me like that.(chorus)I’m ripping out my hair and tearing off my skin,While watching you call everyone my friend, my friend.No one treats(verse)Spreading rumors makes you feel ten feet tall.Cause you can only move up if the others fall.(pre 2)“Hey”Don’t you know I’m talking to you.“Hey”You speak of me behind my back.“Hey”What do you think your doing?You can’t act like that.(chorus)I’m ripping out my hair and tearing off my skin,While watching you call everyone my friend, my friend.(bridge breakdown)I can hear you whisper sweet lies, I can see your vicious disguise.It’s only fate, make no mistake, I will laugh when you fall.It’s only fate, make no mistake, you are no friend at all.(pre)“Hey”Don’t you know I’m talking to you.“Hey”You speak of me behind my back.“Hey”What do you think your doing?You can’t treat me like that.(chorus)I’m ripping out my hair and tearing off my skin,While watching you call everyone, my friend, my friend.You backstabbing little bitch you think that you will win.But everyone really knows you’re no friend, my friend.(pre)“Hey”Don’t you know I’m talking to you.“Hey”You speak of me behind my back.“Hey”What do you think your doing?No one acts like that.

Becoming Numb

Getting so irate that my vision is blured
Getting so angry I can't hear
Getting so furious all I can do is scream
Getting so inflamed all I want is to cause pain

Fuck you for the way you are
Fuck you for ever making me care
Fuck you for ever acting like you cared
Fuck you for making me like this
Fuck you for everything that has happened
Fuck you for hurting me
Fuck you forever

Becoming so dejected all I feel is pain
Becoming so destressed I can't speak
Becoming so heart broken as I listen to your apology
Becoming so sad that I can't stop crying

I can't help but wonder if you ever thought what this would do to me
I can't help but wonder if you ever considered my feelings
I can't help but wonder if you knew how much of a train wreck this would make me
I can't help but wonder if you even thought of me when you let this happen
I can't help but wonder if you realized how close you were to me
I can't help but wonder if you realize that I don't know who to cry too

I had you and now no one
I want to see you, but I don't
I have gone through so much that I am done
I have felt so much that I can't feel anymore
I wanted so much that I can't seem to have
I am done with all this emotion and now I am numb

I don't know why

I don't know why you insist on asking me questions about her.
I don't know why you ask my advice.
I don't know why you tell me you are having tust issues.
I don't know why you insist on being with that bitch instead of me.
I don't know why you don't know what everyone else thinks of her.
I don't know why you are so blind to what she is doing.
I don't know why you don't see why she wanted you.
I don't know why you are the only one that doesn't see her for what she is.
I don't know why you ever gave a real shit about her.
I don't know why you were dumb enough to leave me in the dust for her.
I don't know why you don't remember how happy I made you.
I don't know why you went back on every promise you made me.
I don't know why you were so worried about me hurting you.
I don't know why you didn't tell me you had feelings invested in someone else.
I don't know why you lied to me.
I don't know why you still tell me you adore me.
I don't know why you keep telling me how bad you still feel.
I don't know why you are such a stupid boy.
I don't know why you were so worried about me going back to the asshole that abused me.
I don't know why you are the only one in this world that can predict what's going to happen.

I know that you were scared of me hurting you.
I know that you are scared of being hurt.
I know that you cared for me more.
I know that you would have less of a chance being hurt by her.
I know that I would never hurt you.
I know that every promise I made you was true.
I know that all I want is to make you happy.
I know that I had the greatest conection with you.
I know that I am hurt and will remain hurt til I find something better.
I know that there is nothing better.

hello

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you

Why?

I am a dream.
I am a soul.
I am the hearts greatest desire.
I am the true love.
I am the world.
I am everything.
I am some kind of wonderful.
I am perfection.
I am the greatest thing to ever happen.
I am the universe.
I am best.
I am the one you have been waiting for your whole life.
....and you don't have me.

What is wrong with you?
Do you know what you don't have?
Do you know what you are missing?
Are you blind?
Don't you get it?
Why don't you understand?
Do you even care?
Why would you want to lose me?

You know what you want.
You know that you have failed before.
You know that you have been hurt.
You know that you have been drug through the mud.
You know that you expect dissapointment.
You know that you can't trust yourself to make the right decision.

You want your dream.
You want your soul.
You want your hearts greatest desire.
You want a true love.
You want the world.
You want everything.
You want something wonderful.
You want perfection.
You want the greatest thing to happen for you.
You want the universe.
You want the best.
You want what you have been waiting for your whole life.
...so why don't you have me.

I could be your lover.
I could be your best friend.
I could be your greatest accomplishment.
I could be your happiest dream.
I could be your life.
I could be your wife.
I could be your childs mother.
I could be your heart.
I could be yours forever.

If you come out of your coma.
I will be here.
If you wise up.
I am waiting.
If it takes you to long.
I can't wait forever.
If you ever need me.
I will always be here.
If you find a life far away from me.
I shall always be in your memory.
If you never find me again.
I will always be the one that got away.

Ask yourself one last question.
Do really want to lose me?